As I started to write this post yesterday I thought gee, it’s been a long time since I posted a blog. Since I couldn’t remember the last time I posted anything (they say the mind is the first thing to go…), I looked it up.
That would be June 26th. Exactly one month ago Sunday.
So where did that month go? I’d like to say something inspiring, like I went to a deserted island for a month to seriously seek God’s will for my life. Or maybe something fun, like my husband and I have been eating our way through the food empires of France and Italy. I could tell you that month was spent training for a marathon or even taking care of a sick family member.
But none of those are actually what happened. What happened was the culmination of weeks and months of planning – the first ever PGA Tour tournament in Opelika, Alabama – by some of the hardest working people I’ve ever seen.
Now I had visions of what I thought tournament week (and the weeks leading up to the tournament) would look like. And oh my goodness do I have story after story of what went on July 12th – 19th. Some of them I can share, but some of them – to protect the innocent (or the notsomuch) I shall keep to myself.
I had many moments during this last month that had me wondering why God had put me smack in the middle of an event that I thought I knew a lot about, but was proven to know very little. I asked questions like why was I put in this job, what was I supposed to learn, how could I be a light every day, what was God’s plan, why did I have to get up at 4:30 a.m. (that morning about did me in), how can I still be functioning on day 6 of getting up before 6:00 a.m. (I am so not a morning person), would this tournament be successful, how do I fit in being the newbie on a seasoned team…
In short, I had no shortage of questions. And honestly I didn’t have a whole lotta time to figure out the answers.
‘Cause when your alarm goes off and it’s 5:00 a.m. – AGAIN – and you normally set your alarm for 6:30 (or let’s be honest – more like 7:00 in my world) it’s a struggle just to remember to put on deodorant and brush your teeth before you head out the door.
But now that I’ve had a week to recover – and yep, it took about a whole week for me to feel normal again – I’ve had some time to seek answers to some of those questions. Some answers are obvious (I had to get up at 4:30 a.m. because it was my job). Some answers I’m still looking for, but one truth stuck out today as I replayed the fun, the chaos, my excitement and my meltdowns.
God never left my side.
Oh I may have strayed from Him a bit – I’ll just be totally transparent and say I didn’t have my usual morning quiet times with Jesus all those mornings that started at 5:00 a.m. (or earlier). I tried to make sure I listened to praise & worship music on the way to the course and to pray for strength (and grace, and mercy so I didn’t verbally whip someone that didn’t do what I wanted them to do like you would an old mule in a pasture), but that isn’t the same as easing into my morning with my coffee in one hand and my Bible in the other.
And I just want to encourage anyone out there who feels some distance between you and your heavenly Father. We may stray a bit, but He never does. He never left me during this last month. He held me up and gave me an attitude of service and kindness that – well – I can just promise you ain’t what it would have been had I not spent time with Jesus before this last month started AND if I had not had multiple people praying over me. (And a huge shout-out to all those prayer warriors – your prayers were definitely needed and felt!)
And God was watching and waiting patiently for me to return and spend time with Him. And oh how He never disappoints! So if you are going through a season where you just don’t feel very close to God, let me encourage you to take one step – or a giant leap – towards God. He will meet you wherever you are, for when you come near to God, He will come near to you. (James 4:8)
And if you are in a season of craziness in your life, take heart knowing God will NEVER leave you. “The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” (Deuteronomy 31:8) Also rest assured that God’s strength CAN and WILL carry you through this season: “I can do ALL THINGS through CHRIST who STRENGHTENS me.” (Philippians 4:13)
We can all take comfort in that truth. God will always be by our side, carrying us when we don’t have the strength and providing exactly what we need to make it through those seasons in our lives. So go home to Him and experience the rest, the peace that only He can provide.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)